Friendship

Sometimes we don't know how to express our feelings and we confuse ourselves and show it the wrong way, but wrong way how? Do you recognize yourself hurting someone because you have no idea how to communicate what you feel or have had a hard time communicating that they hurt you before? Yeah, I thought so... through the years I have seen people's attitudes and see myself falling into that mistake of not empathizing with people. Recognizing my flaws was the first step to try to be a better person which I'm still working on Huhhh.. and Aush!!  Hurts to acknowledge you fuck up and hurt people too. The important part is to actually think, in how the situation can be fixed and then start moving a step forward. 

Unfortunately, what produced this reflection is a several events with several people around me, that confused me in how to deal with this kind of situation. How can I make the decision in how to deal with it? In the past, I walked away from people who hurt me because they are unable to acknowledge their flaws, although this time I tried to express what was wrong and apologized for my mistakes but I wasn't heard and acknowledged so it’s filling my mind with the idea if it’s time to finally let go.

I have a friend that means the world to me because we shared fantastic moments together, but let's face it with time we evolve and change, sometimes people isn't going and growing at our same pace, maybe they go faster or slower or simply just not in the same direction. That's the point where you value what people's essence bring into your life and what they inject to your soul, if they buy you a drink, coffee or lunch is not meaningful anymore. Over the past months I tried to express how things were wrong trying not to hurt feelings but apparently it was not acknowledged, I remember myself many times saying out loud, you are always listening to what I say but you are not paying attention. For this person, it was just “drama”, I felt like I was talking to a wall.

In the end, this person showed me that was more considered about its own well-being first, second and third and then the left overs where for the rest of the people surrounding. For this reason, I felt obliged to make the choice of taking some distance, since it’s my turn to think about my own good. Right?

I really hope this friendship will fall back into place in the near future, I truly have faith that this person can think about what is fair both ways an acknowledge that we are both human. Being human means making mistakes, but the most important part is to actually take care of the consequences of our own actions/behaviour. Start by taking some action to fix things, take baby steps but start moving forward with any type of situation we are dealing with. We all deserve a second chance, we all deserve to be heard and we all deserve to be happy. Offer people your best and the rest will follow, just spread and sow positive vibes, do your best and wait and see the beautiful harvest.

You don't need to hurt people's feelings just because you are dealing with your personal issues. On the other hand, if someone hurts you, you don't need to hurt them back. 

Be smarter, be better and talk. Talk, it can fix everything, it's a matter of empathy both ways. Being honest will help the true friendships remain! True friends are there to help, support you and mainly offer a spark of good vibes, kindness and positivity in your life!! ♥